typical

in typical lee fashion, i missed out.

apparently there was an awards ceremony at college, and apparently i won two scholarships, apparently you can win scholarships without applying for them, and apparently i should have known i won two scholarships because apparently i was emailed about them.

anyways, i wasn't able to give a speech :( i think my classmates have likely heard enough of me go off on tangents tho.

i honestly thought the faculty hated me for my antics. but maybe not. i feel honored that they've awarded me. i should email them and let them know that.

this might seem like an isolated incident but it's not. once all the staff at the Mustard Seed had a large lunch in honor of me leaving (i quit, yet i returned a couple months later). there were about 60 of them and none of me. i was reading a book and brendan called me and told me i was an idiot. i mention that's not a nice way to start a conversation and then he reminds me of my going away party that i was missing. wow.

i think, somehow, someway, i will miss my own funeral. everyone will be gathered to remember me and pray blessings on my soul, and my corpse will have been delivered to the wrong chapel.